you !

Finally back from KL .
Fucking syok , sad , happy , tired , pity .
Went to pasarmalam with classmate .
I saw macy them .
WTF ! Sei zai leong back ady , and he won't go back SG again .
GREAT ! HAHAHAHAHAHA .
i told them something , they laugh me like hell gem .
Especially Ah Leong . Laugh cannot stop .
W@hen snooker kena he hit me .
Sei zai ah >< HAHAHHAHAHAHA . He touch my hand and keep on say SORRY . WTF ! His hand so clod man . SWT ! I feel very hot lor . HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH . He belanja kita minum ler ><
I'm the last order , he paid for them ady .
When my coffee came already .
I wanna pay , then he fast fast help me paid .
Aiyoor . Thanks so much lor :p
ahahahahah .
GOSH ! yuan lai that day YEE HIM text me it's because of wanna ask me to clubbing .
But I'm still in KL . Haven't back .
Yuan lai it's because og ah leong came back ady .
LOL . Today lor or tomorrow .
Because my birthday mar :p
HAHAHAHAHAHAH

GASTRIC !

OMG ! GASTRIC .
AWWWWW ! Fucking pain !
Nia sing ! o0o
Then better pain sei ngo lar .
Live here for what .
Always easy get sick .
People told I'm sengaja sick don't want go to work .
FUCK !
I'm really sick .
Is it ban sick will syok ?
NO ! I don't think so .
Don't feel like easy to ban sick lor .
SHIT !
I hate those fucking feelings !
Fine ! I post on facebook rude words . Peoples will come and fuck me 99 ! o0o
I already lost my freedom !
What you want me to do again ?
Want me to DIE ?
COME ON !
It's easy to die .

UHMMMMM

I'm so sorry .
Haihhhh . I also don't wish to saw that .
Hou sen fu !
Can't talk with you .
I hope i guess wrong .
Sorry sum .
Haihhhh . Don't know how to open mouth to say .
I can feel that you got abit tak syok .
But what can I do .
Ngo dou em seong .
Why ngo gem unless geh !
FUCK !
Sorry , i know maybe I'm guess wrong .
And I know I should open my mouth to talk with you 1st .
Sorry , I know you always treat me good .
I know I have wrong . SORRY =(
I tell myself !
NO NEXT TIME !
I only hope everything will be fine .
And hope when I'm already 18years old I will sang sang seng seng .
Cheng Chee Yan , you can do it !

FUCKING MOODY

Tomorrow it's my birthday .
I didn't have any feelings now :(
Just feel like moody .
I know the reason .
That's my fault !
I shouldn't do that !
I shouldn't so unless !
I have to follow myself .
Not follow others .
I hate myself right now !
I wanna kill myself right now !
I wanna leave here !
Feel like wanna die !
Hope can live until after 02-11-2011 .........................

1st TIME CALL 999 @@

Serious , I'm 1st time call 999 .
Gen jeong like hell gem ><
After we perform at Kampar , we back to church .
Then we making a video for their camp one .
Then jing loon go outside .
When he came inside . He told us got an Indian uncle asked him call ambulance .
Then I'm looking outside , I saw that uncle go back bus stop there , and sleep at there .
Then all of us feel very surprise and keep on ask why .
Then we discuss a while , when discussion , no one really wanna go bus station there ask the uncle what happened actually ..
They just gave me a reason that they don't know speak malay . WTF !
Then I suggest go and ask uncle .
Then me and heng wo , jing loon go and ask .
Uncle told me that he sakit jantung , wanna go hospital . He look like hou sen fu .
When I saw this i really very sympathy uncle , I tell myself I must help him or call ambulance .
Then I take my phone and press 999 .
Blah blah blah blah blah blah .
Madam said pass the line to Ipoh hospital .
I'm gen jeong and waiting and my heart keep on say FAST FAST FAST  ! 
Finally Ipoh hospital pick up the phone .
STUPID ! Where is Gunung Rapat also don't know ! WTF !
USE YOUR BABI BRAIN LAA ! TIUUUUUUUUUUUU ! 
Talked so much with me , in the end , he told me , sorry , didn't have any ambulance here . Please wait .
Only got 3 ambulance , but 3 also out already .
WHAT THE FUCK ! o0o
Malaysia really poor like hell mie ! Go and buy more and more lar .
Then I told him , no need ! I can wait but uncle can't wait ! 
I told him I send uncle to hospital , luckily you still got manners and say thanks with me and keep on ask me really send him to hospital . 
I SAY YES ! IF NOT ! I'M SERIOUS ! 
Then he keep on say thanks ! Because I still know how to spell RESPONSIBLE , OKAY  !
I told uncle I send him to hospital , uncle cried  !
OH MY GOSH !
I asked wheres your son and daughter , uncle cried again ! 
My heart was broken when I saw uncle cried ! 
Uncle don't cry please :)
I told him , Uncle , may GOD bless you and Happy Deepavali :D
Uncle smile a while and keep on say thanks .
On the road really got 2 or 3 ambulance there . Accident ?
GOD BLESS =/
Uncle's pocket only got RM5 .
His son and daughter not here , I hope they will come back and find uncle :(
Finally reached hospital .
We take uncle to inside , I think uncle go hospital . 
No wonder he knows how to go .
Doctor asked me , you know him ? 
I said I don't know him , just he minta tolong .
Doctor said , well done , and very surprise , because didn't see before plus that uncle is Indian and we really don't know and when we called ambulance , ambulance can't help then we sent to hospital . 
Only got people will call ambulance . But ambulance come or don't come not their business .
I told him , I only can do what can I do .
And help what can I help .
Doctor also keep on said thanks with us .
When I'm gonna leave , I told uncle I have to go , and wish uncle again , Happy Deepavali :)
Uncle cried again and keep on said thanks .
I feel like wanna cry =(
But I know I can't cry =/
Uncle . May GOD bless you :)
When we reached church , that ye sui lou said us sor and called us don't go help , and told us that uncle ban ye !
I really fucking angry and gotta feeling wanna go scold 9 him 99 ! o0o
Shut the fuck up ! Not business ! Diam ! Bullshit ! 
Well ! Lou yeh ! You will regret , and I hope you won't kena this one day ! 
Uncle , Happy Deepavali and wish all your dream come true ! :D
May GOD bless you and your family ^^
And hope your family will come back and find you :p

FLU ! =(

Don't sick please , I don't wish to sick when I having my trip =/
Don't pleaseeee =(
I'm already period now .
GOSH ! One month two times period . WTF !
GILA BETUL ! @@
Luckily don't sakit perut or tired like hell .
Just like normal , But i DISLIKE lor ><
ISHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ! WTF !

别等我累了放弃了、才想要爱我 =/

如果哪天我放弃你了，不是我不喜欢你，而是你不珍惜.

如果有一天我放弃了你，请不要怀疑我是否恋上另一个人，

是因为我发觉你不珍惜我.

离开你并非我愿意，我不想拿放弃当威胁，因为那两个字我不曾轻易说出口，

因为曾经爱过...

假如有天我真正选择了离开...

那么对不起不是想要你的挽留...



而是对你真的死心了。

有些人总是在失去之后才知道曾经的美好...



在我决定离开你之前我会给你好多机会。

如果你把我给你的机会当作你放纵的资本，有天我会真的走出来..



虽然我会痛会伤心

可我了解自己，一旦爱上一个人会全心全意，可一旦我真正决定了死心，那么我只会在心里哭泣一次，然后选择忘记...

如果我选择了放弃选择了离开，那么我便再也不会回头。

如果有天我放弃你了，你会偶尔想起我吗？那些我们一起度过的.......

别等我累了，放弃了，你才想起来要爱我.

I'M WAITING MY LUNCH =/

Mechanic going to buy our lunch .
Hari ini kena makan CURRY RICE ><
But i like it !:p
HAHAHAHA XD My favourite , HAHAH .
But already 3days makan curry rice laa .
LOL . Btw , syok mar . HAHAHA XD

ALONE AT OFFICE =/

OMG ! Today many VIP come , they come for meeting .
Gen jeong . When I reached office , Mr Tong dah sampai ni .
So early == Because he cleaning his room .
Awwww ! When i came out from toilet , my BOSS Mr Leong reached office ady .
Huhhhhh , Hey Sir :)
OMG ! So early ==
Uhmmmmmmm .
Mr Leong(SVC Dept), Mr Leong's Assistant , Mr Lim , Mr Raymond , Mr David Siew , Mr Koo(aspc Dept) , Ms Ellisa and more , but I don't know >< Uhmmmmm . They take Ms Sum go meeting also . I'm alone in office ! HELP ! Siennnnnn . No people talk with me , no people makan with me . L0L , SPC's Desmond really treat me so good , called me go KL eat with them , won't bored wor >.<
Later i kena GORENG SOTONG laa . LOL .
SIENNNNNNNNNNNNNN !
HUNGRY !
HELPPPPPPPPPPP !

一個人走、一個人忙、一個人沉醉、一個人體會

一個人走，一個人睡，一個人思索，一個人沉醉。
一個人忙，一個人累，一個人煩躁，一個人體會。
從希望到絕望，盼望到失望。從夢想到狂想，妄想到別想。
我很想你，想念過去的你，
想念那個有無暇笑容的你，
想念那個肯為我付出一切的你，
想念那個用充滿愛意的眼神凝視我的你
也許，愛情只是自己的一種幻想。
也許，愛情只是太過孤單時給自己找個寄託。
也許，愛情只是不知道如何解讀的依賴。
也許，愛情只是想讓自己付出。
也許，愛情只是想告訴自己我愛了。
也許，愛情只是因為想讓自己變得像自己想的那樣。
在人與人來回試探眼神的言語，在愛與不愛等待與放棄的煎熬裡。
在心與心碰撞後開始保護自己，在放與不放沉澱與寂寞的日子裡
原來不快樂不能假裝，原來想念是………
不能隱瞞，原來悲傷只能自己扛。
其實過去也只能原諒，其實沉默不等於遺忘，其實失蹤並不曾離去。
我真正需要的其實並不多。
難過時的一句安慰，得意時的一句讚揚，累了有一個肩膀靠，傷心了有一個溫柔的懷抱。
錯過是是人們經常上演的戲碼，我們總是經歷著一次又一次得錯過。
人物對了，時間不對。
時間對了，地點不對。
地點對了，可是在身邊的人卻又不是心裡想的那個。
然後總是一次又一次的埋怨。
要是再早一點點的話，
要是再多走一圈的話，
要是再多呆一會的話。
可怕的輪回，但卻又是始終逃脫不了的宿命。
如果沉默是一種傷害，請選擇離開。
現在，我選擇離開。因為經過刻骨傷害，所以必須成長。
別再浪費時間了，到最後也沒有人會真得改變。
記得，忘記。在乎，隨意。
堅持，也許只是不能放手的懷念。
誰也不能把誰真正的留在身邊。
也許到最後，我們也只能說著——某年某天某地
因為愛太深，所以選擇放開你的手
我開始準備著自己一個人應付一切。那又如何。
其實早就一個人了。
再也觸不到的時刻。
我決定收起心中一直留給你的空位。
我決定不再耽擱你而罷免了自己。
我決定不再愛你了
那枚一直帶在無名指上的斑駁的戒指會和你一起消失在我的世界裡你和它我都不要了
因為我要開始愛自己了。
無可厚非，時間是最毒的毒藥。造就全部，摧毀一切。
所以，讓我，一點一點遺忘。

Uhm , sorry classmate =(

Sometimes i can't make decide .
I'm so sorry to my classmate .
They always ask me out , but i always can't =/
Because I gonna go church for service and ping ge suo zhao .
I know they always disappointed and gek sum .
I always ffk =/
Sorry guys , I'm really sorry about that .
In school , you guys always accompany me and cheer me up .
Thanks guys :)
I always promised you guys no more ffk case .
But I always do that , and you guys always forgive me =/
I'm so sorry friends =(
I PROMISE AGAIN ! NO MORE FFK !
I'M PROMISE !
I love you guys ♥

JANE HAPPY BIRTHDAY :)

Jane happy birthday :) MAY GOD BLESS YOU ^^
Although not close with you , because recently start to talk much with you .
HAHAHAAHAH . see you tonight :p
Tonight you got on is it ?
We going to yum cha tonight ;D
HAHAA ! Can celebrate your birthday also :p
Wish you all the best and dream come true :)

I'm tired !

I'm just wanna rest !
I'm tired at all !
Can i take a rest ?
GOD SAVE ME LEASE :(

♥

♥

刚开始的时候，他什么都不介意，不介意你的过去，不介意你的坏脾气。
然后有一天，他开始介意……
时日过去，他忘记了自己所说的一切。
人在得不到的时候，什么都可以不介意。
得到之后，什么都有点介意。
这是爱情，希望你不要太介意。

I'm finding a guy can do that with me ♥

HOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHO :p

It's coming ! It's coming !
Well , how to do ?
I'm looking forward my birthday .
Just wanna happy to celebrate my birthday with my dear friends .
but CAN I ?
blah blah blah blah blahhhhhhhhhhhhhh !
Hope jek .
But don't too happy .
If not i will more sad lea .
SIGH ! SIEN !
I just need surprise .
COME ON ! SURPRISE >.<
CAN I ?
I want surprise !
Hoi , SUPERMAN ! I MISS YOU RIGHT NOW ♥

EMO =/

When I'm moody I only hear those song always make me high and make me cry .
i just don't want to think .
Because I'm tired =(
Stop to thinking stop to do anything ,
Just wanna be lazy =/
What also don't want to do .
Actually I'm naughty girl .
Clubbing it's one of my life :D
I can't lost it !
Only clubbing i only can get well soon .
A lots friend at there , fun , hug , kiss , many thing :p
I'm fucking happy when i go :p
But yesterday it's my 1st time vomit after i drunk =(
ngo zhong laugh see wah vomit after drink ><
LAK SEHHHHHHHHHHHHH ! o0o
STUPID GIRL ! o0o WTF !
Luckily no people saw it , only the guy who fetch me home then he know .
3 times block , luckily nothing . huhhh .
Police saw me like drunk , want check my IC !
Well , just check ! I didn't wrong !
Because I'm not driver :p LALALALLALALL xp

ET 18YEARS OLD BIRTHDAY ♥

MY ET , HAPPY BIRTHDAY ♥
I LOVE YOU MY BFF !
This story it's for you :)
You this sei sor por , i kenal you already 10years ! :D
AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ! XD
No one can longer than you loo , opsss !
Actually got , ah duan loo :p
HAHAHHHAHAAHAH ,since I baby I already know her .
But you is standard 2 know you until now :p
Standard 2 until Standard 6 we same class .
Then secondary we also same school , but Form 1 & 2 we not same class .
Finally until Form 3 I can same class with you .
Then until Form 5 also same class and you sit with me one ! hhahaha XD
You in a relationship with yee him !
I really very very surprise loo ><
HAHAAHHAHAHA !
Congratulation my beloved ♥
Finally you found your dream man ♥
I'm happy that you can found a good boy , ehy , he really good ger loo . Although got smoke , but you are his 1st LOVE loo ♥ HAHHAHA .
Hope you can stay longer with him :D
hehehehehs , dear , wish you all the best ;D
Stay happy , pretty , cute , slim always ♥
I LOVE YOU MY BELOVED ET ♥

可不可以让我知道、你很在乎我 =/

如果，你在乎我。可不可以让我知道，不要总是让我找你，那会让我感觉，你根本就不在意我。

如果你在乎我，就不要总是让我孤单一个人，我真的很讨厌寂寞。

如果，你在乎我。记得多关心我关心我，我喜欢你问我今天做了什么，而不是自己一个劲地告诉你，我今天怎么了。

如果，你在乎我。在我情绪低落，心情郁闷的时候，要多讲话逗逗我，不要一直的沉默，其实，只要你一句话，我就会很开心了。

如果，你在乎我。在我生你气的时候，绝对不可以想着我在生气，就不理会我。这样，我会很伤心，也会更生气，其实，我只是想你哄哄我。

如果，你在乎我。不要总是回我 呵呵 哦 这类的话语，就算你不想说话，也要多打几个字，不要让我感觉你是在敷衍我。

如果，你在乎我。不要让我在需要你的时候，却找不到你，那样的我很无助。

如果，你在乎我。要记住我们在一起发生的事情，要记住我的喜好。

如果，你在乎我。不管是好是坏的事情，我都想你可以告诉我，让我分享你的快乐，分担你的忧愁。

如果，你在乎我。你会想办法，让我每天都开开心心的吧？如果我在乎你，我也可以做到。

CHRUCH ! (:

Esther Chee Wei Yin = cute , awesome :p
Eric Cheong Theong Hoe = awesome , funny :D
Wong Chun Ying = awesome , pro , clever ( my dear ♥ )
Coco Liew Hui Sin = funny , she always like crazy :p
Elaine Chee Wei Ling - w\awesome , clever ^^
Chee Wei San = pandai masak ;D
Vaness Looi Lai Sun = I scare laugh xD
Kelvin Ng Kah Wei = always help people ;)
Queeny Tong Wei Bo = diam diam jer ;p
Elwin Peh Suan Teik = always help people , don't always drive so fast xp
Catherine Cheong Jia Shan = a;ways care me :p
Sophia Cheong Jia Jing = house diam diam , luar bising :p
Chan Jian Yu = hahahah , i always love you loo boy ♥ cute :p
Qiu Jia Wei = you are great :)

MOM !

Mummy , i miss you again :(
Where are you ?
My birthday coming . Would you come back ?
I'm still waiting for you :/
Daddy always help that SEI FEI PO !
I always get hurt and bully at this SHIT house !
I have never feel warm !
I miss gu ma mi and you .
I know she already passed away , but i always miss her ! T.T
I HATE THIS FUCKING LIFE !
I HATE THIS BULL SHIT MOM !
Can i stop to let her hurt me and bully me ? :(
GOSHHH ! I HATE IT !
I JUST WANNA BE NORMAL !
CAN I ?
Mummy . I'm always miss you ! :(
But you have never know it !
You leave me alone :(
I LOVE YOU AND I MISS YOU MY BELOVED MUMMY ♥

CHEE WEI SAN !

Ah San . I think you won't see this . Because you never open blog one . Am i right ? HAHAHAHAH . Alright , Thanks for you be my friend :) Before we always chat chat chat until non-stop . But now didn't have ler >.< Because both of us also didn't have enough time to chat izit ? Actually it's alasan jek >< Because we didn't seem like before can always chat . Hmmmm , I also don't know why :/ Maybe topic not same ady . Well , you already got boyfriend to care and sayang you . I hope that boy will seriously to treat you good and sayang you . I hope he won't hurt you like before SY hurt you . I will support you and be with you :)
Before I always go your house , we always chat at your room before sleep with ning ning :p HAHHAHHA , I miss that time badly i tell you :/ When we can like that again ? I know your SPM coming . Alright , keep going , Keep it up ! I LOVE YOU ♥

ELAINE CHEE WEL LING ! ( part 2 )

Actually i haven't finish yet , HAHAH
You really awesome , let me very pei fu you . HAHAHAH
You only 14years old , but you already know alots thing .
It's our LORD giving you .
Keep it up seriously .
You really can do it ! :)
Well , i knew you always care about me .
I know I know !
Really thanks so much :)
It's touch for me , and I will cherish it ! ^^
Ernnn , for me you really important .
I only can write at here , because if face to face I don't know how to say :p
HAHAHHAHAHA , Because I know you will view my blog :D
hmmmmm , I really miss that time i always go your house play , eat , sleep .
Unforgettable ! it's our sweet memories :p
Do you remember it ? I ALWAYS REMEMBER ALL ! ♥
How's your life now ?
I really long long long time didn't chat with you :/
Since you still study Standard 6 I friend with you until now .
We have never quarrel . It's great ! (: AHHAHAAHAH XD
Hmmmmmm , when we can syok together ? sleep together ?
HAHAHAHAH . Really damn miss it !
Alright , Ning , I LOVE YOU ! ♥
YOU ARE MY BFF ! ♥

ELAINE CHEE WEL LING !

Dear sis ,
you are so cute and nice :)
i'm happy that i can know you .
well . it's great !
you won't easy to angry .
if you really angry you will easy to forgive ppl .
I LIKE IT ! ^^
keep it up .